I cannot get my baby to sleep.. she's fed, clean.. starts to fall asleep then wakes up within minutes crying.. so i guess I'm in for a long night.. already couldn't sleep anyway..
Any one else up who'd want to talk to keep me company..?
@zerrin some.. my sweet sweet man eventually took over so we both had a chance to get some sleep.. I don't think she actually fell asleep till around 4am tho x.x
@hmonday08 i was also a drug addict and so is my husband that's how we met and we've dabbled and it every once in awhile but I'm main focus is our children we don't go buck wild like we used to before I had children and before our lives started together congratulations on the 5 years that's awesome very very proud of you if you want you can message me and maybe we can swap numbers and talk more or if you just need somebody to talk to I'm here
@mommys4angels very true.. and it sounds like you've worked very hard to do what's the best for your family. I was so irresponsible for so long.. I was a part girl as well.. but not just drinking. I didn't drink.. I'm not so ashamed of it anymore, so I'm willing to talk about it and admit it.. but in was a full fledged addict. Meth. Couldn't see myself never not doing it. And id hang with people who were also addicts, using, and were pregnant.. I said I would never do that, so the one thing I give myself credit for during that time in my life, is I stayed on my birth control. I was not going to do what those other girls were doing... and then it hit me one day, the drugs only made me feel better temporarily, but they had changed me into a person I hated. Been clean for 5 years, and now I'm have this beautiful baby girl. So I guess things happen for a reason. And I'm glad it worked out the way it did. I will never look back after leaving that lifestyle, and I only l ool towards the future with my sweet daughter <3.
And you're right, it's our responsibility to take care of our children. No one else's. But it is nice to have the help. I'm sorry about your husband being gone so long.. but at least he's out there providing for you and your babies.
We're not married, but will be one day.. but my SO does so well with out daughter and provides the best he can.. he needs a better job, and he's looking into it.. I don't want to put it all on him, and I will go back to work when needed.. but I wish he was making a bit more now so I could at least stay with Ridley for a couple more months... and instead of going back part time to a job I hate, look into applying at a well paying full time job with actual benefits...
@hmonday08 it's not up to us when we have kids. Trust me I wasn't ready for my son but we do what we have to. At the time when I had my son I still wanted to party but I had to grow up. I've learned from my mistakes on raising my son. So now I'm a better mom to all four of my children. I couldn't see my life any different without my children. I've learned a lot from growing up and now that my son is 10 he has friends and I see the moms doing the same thing that I did when I was young and it hurts my heart because these kids didn't ask to be brought into this world but yet here they are and I'm so glad that I have grown and I've matured into the mother I am today and if it wasn't for my husband I think I would still be the same mom I was at 20 potting my son off to my mother to my grandmother to anybody who would take him and now that I have nobody to pawn my children off to I wish that I could just to be able to have a moment to myself. But I know it's nobody else's responsibility to take care of my children it's mine and it really sucks having my husband a trucker and him home only 3 to 4 days a month if that I mean he's been gone since November 8th and I still have a whole nother week until he's home for 4 days and then he's back on the road again
@mommys4angels I'm 28.. never really saw myself as a mom before this.. not that I didn't want kids, I just never saw it in the cards for me.. took me a long time to get my life together and years of bad decisions, so I knew I didn't want one under those specific circumstances.. but my mom has been a big help, and any advice given I'm so thankful for. I've always liked kids.. but until I had her I had never even changed a diaper x.x
@hmonday08 all babies want to feel safe. Make a routine out of it. I hope that. I no I had a hard time with my son. I was only 20 when I had him so my mom was a big help and I tryed everything my friends and family suggested
@hmonday08 ok I get it now. Just make her feel she is safe. Tonight give her a nice warm bath with night time soap than rub her with lotion and cuddle with her.
@mommys4angels no.. and it's the first time she's ever done that.. maybe she just didn't feel good.. tho no fever.. growth spurt maybe? I'm just guessing.. I'm a first time mom just figuring things out as well go lol...
@mommys4angels we were up with her till almost 4am.. nothing worked except laying in there with her.. and even then, it took awhile before it worked.. so tired x.x
@hmonday08 try giving her a warm bath and cuddle with her. She might be having nightmares. My 6 month old has them every once in awhile to where she wakes up and she's screaming but what she feels me there she falls right back to sleep. So like I said she could be having a nightmare and she just wants mommy love