So reality check. You know how you go shopping and you see a thing that you want, over and over again, then you see people who own the thing and it makes you really really want the thing, but then you buy the thing and its not so great. Now that you've bought the thing you find out its not as amazing as you figured it would be, I mean you enjoy and love the thing 97% of the time, but the other 3% you spend wondering why you got the thing.

That is what being a first time mother at 31 years old feels like. I know people want to be silent about this kinda thing, but its the truth and women should know what its really like. And that its 100%OK to feel this way at times.