Rant...
So I have been breastfeeding 99 percent of the time I think i gave her 2 bottles of formula in the early days just so I could sleep. I gave her a bottle last night because she will latch eat for 5 minutes fall asleep and be up every 20 minutes and honestly im just dead exausted and I have been sick for over a week. My fiance made me feel like complete shit about giving her formula....he thinks its so easy but its really stressing me out if shes not not hooked to my boob I am pumping so someone else can feed her if i have to go out and lately i assume from being sick and so overly stressed out I am not pumping the amount i was...which is even more stressful. We have been arguing so much because he just doesnt get how tired I am...he says oh well you're body is made for no sleep..im sick and get 3 hours of sleep a night and have a tiny human sucking what little energy I have out of me.....ugh I cant stand him anymore
And rant ☺
It's hard to exclusively pump..she was probably on your boob all day and night to get your supply up also you don't respond as well pumping then with baby on breast...I would try to have her eat on you during the day then bottle at night it's hard and ya you get very little sleep so he needs to stop being an ass!
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,
his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...
What would you do? I feel so stupidly selfish if I choose to be induced because I want my boy to come when he is ready, but I am also feeling selfish stressing him out because everything going on and how stressed I am. So do I continue to stress him out or do I get induced and deal with this and let him be? Or will he be okay? I've been up all night contracting on and off but could it be from my nerves?
I am so upset! Went for my 33 week checkup and they told me I have 2 stds! I have not been with anyone other than my sons dad and he says he has been faithful to me I have been crying all morning!
I am so sick of...
people saying "enjoy your quiet time now", or "get your sleep while you can".

This is my son Walter. Today is his birthday. He would have been five. This picture was taken when he was 16 days old. He was my first child and my only son (I now have 3 girls). He passed away the next day after this picture from congenital heart failure. It was a miracle that he lived passed 12 weeks gestation because of how severe his heart defects were. I miss him so much, I can't believe it's been 5 years. It still hurts so bad. I don't talk about him a lot out loud because I end up bawling...
I’m sorry you’re going through this girl I bet it’s hard right now being sick and then having to be awake feeding your baby.
Men will just not understand how it is until they have a whole day with a baby alone. And as for formula I was once there my desperation made me give my son so he can sleep longer, I was beyond exhausted didn’t know what to do but it was only couple of times. You know what your doing don’t let any one make you feel otherwise. It’s hard at the beginning with a baby then sick makes it more harder. Hang in there and hope you feel better.