I ask for no super negative comments please. These are just a few of my thoughts the last couple of days. I was molested as a child by my father. By middle school/junior high I got a restraining order against him. I haven't really associated with him since. The few times I did were for weddings, funerals, or to please my older brother. While I had forgiven him for everything I couldn't let the anger go. No matter what I tried it never went away. One of my sisters lived a harder life than I did (I was adopted). She asked if she should contact our mother (who had more problems than I can name and really screwed hey over) and get father (did the same as mine) and telling them she forgave them. I told her no because she's not in a place where she can handle any consequences from it. But it left me thinking maybe that might help me. So I went for it. I contacted my father on Facebook and told him what I went through because of his actions, that I could never trust him again and he wouldn't be in my family's life. But that I forgave him. It helped me so much! It reminded me of the times when he was a great dad. I had forgotten or forced the memories away. While I don't want him to have a father/daughter relationship with him I want to talk every now and then, like a pen-pal . A decent sized part of me still wants to be accepted by my father. How crazy I must be to feel this way.