@maditayler, thank you. This is why I joined this app, to hear other stories and how people are coping with this. I feel the exact same way.

It DOES get better. I would be fine one second and the next full blown panic attack feeling like the world was going to end. In life there can’t be good without bad though, so it seemed like with all the love I had for my new son came all sorts of fear of loosing him or something happening to him. I tried to just focus on all the good things that come with being a mom. If you kept your placenta that helped a lot too. My son is almost 2 months now and thankfully I have stopped getting those sudden feelings of impending doom!!! I’m not sure exactly when it stopped, but as your hormones rebalance it will get better.

Thank You. It means a lot and it’s just the sad thoughts I get. Like I’ll sit on the couch, baby fed, burped, and changed and content, and I start crying. Think of what life has to offer and it’s always sadness. It’s the first time I’ve ever had these thoughts. She’s been here 8 days.

I'm here if u have any questions about the first 3/4 months I'm a first time mommy too but I could def share some things I've learned along the way it's good to distract urself trying to find out things u wonder about the baby its so cool to look up YouTube videos and things (: Amazon is awesome too! Hehe

All I have to say is try to enjoy these first months with Amelia she's gorgeous 😍 and she needs mommy to be strong for her.. Trust me the time flies and you'll miss these times I know it's hard with so much sleep deprivation so it's only normal for us to get moody. But if I have Any advice is to just relax and take things day by day don't overwhelm urself for baby feels ur anxiety and she only wants u to be happy . Get lost in wanting all the good stuff for her (: