Venting: Things have been silent a little to silent. When one says not to worry but you worry anyways then you find out what your gut was saying anyway is prob the theory to the truth. When said persons only wanna talk in person and I'm sitting here trying to fight for my eldest and do right by that, but feel so alone and in the wrong for doing the right thing. I have bawled my eyes out for the past 52hours its not gonna just go away. Can't seem to win for loosing or do anything right for that matter. Feel hated by the ones suppose to love me and this baby the most. Feel broken and for what so he can tell me he doesn't want to talk to me. Only in person. Remember that when you have a change of heart and want to see my baby. Broken over and over again into so many pieces not sure how much its gonna take to fix me if can even be fixed. I'm about ready just to give up and call it all quits what's the point of any of this any more. I can only hold in so much and I'm sure I just broke.