Today was a hard day. I feel like I suck as a mother...I wish babies came with more instructions 😵😋😭
I have felt sad once a day since my baby was born a week ago... I hope this passes.
It’s thought but so worth it taking day by day it’s very hard.
Omg girl same !! Ugh :( sometimes I just think I’m doing everything wrong :/ but we can’t be to harsh on ourselves we’re learning as we go !

I will be 41 :/
Short Luteal Phase?
I've just started temping because I believe that the reason I haven't had a BFP yet, after 20 months, is because I believe I may have a Luteal Phase Defect.
Things I never thought I'd say...
Until I became a mom:
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,
his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...
I wish I could offer more encouragement but I guess all that can be said is, the 'bad' times wont last forever. Hubby and I have waited 10+ years for this baby girl to decide to come into our lives. Its hard, not gonna lie, but when she looks up at me with those little eyes, 100% trusting me with her whole life and she smiles, it makes all the crying and all the fussing and all the I don't know what the hell I'm doing moments fade away.