I physically and mentally can’t do it anymore, today was suppose to shed some light and it’s done…

Hope all is okay! Xx

stay strong lovely! hope everything's okay, here if you need a chat/vent! 😘

@beffgoude, thanks Hun sorry for the late response, yesterday I was just not in the right place. It’s kind of long but I could really use some help ☹️, so when I got pregnant with Ava it was the worst pregnancy ever, morning sickness everyday, constant headaches, I was in and out of hospital all the time, then her labour wasn’t any better but I was just so happy to have her now. Anyway a few months later I had this really big heavy dizzy spell that went through the whole my body, I thought it was probably just my body getting used to not being pregnant anymore so didn’t think much of it, so I decided to go to bed but when I work up the next day I was full on dizzy and had this pain/ pressure go all down my face, neck and head. I have seen so many doctors and had so many mris and ct scans done over the years and it wasn’t to long ago that they finally sAid that they think I have vestibular migraines, so I’ve been on loads of types of medicine which hasn’t helped, I’m dizzy 24/7 with pain, which has impacted my quality of life, there’s things I can’t do anymore and I rely a lot on my partner to help me. So I had an appointment yesterday which I had a good feeling about but it just ended up resulting with more bad news, I have been dizzy for nearly 4 years, I feel like I’m failing as a mother to my babies and I don’t feel independent anymore ☹️, I just want to feel normal again, because all of this started when Ava was only a couple of months old I have missed out on so much stuff with her like silly things like having her in a baby carrier, or just me and her going to the park, I know it probably sounds silly but the little things mean a lot to me, sorry for rambling on I just get really down about it sometimes and when I get more bad news from the doctors it makes me feel worse ☹️

@sarahlucindagiddins you've had it tough physically and mentally, but that doesn't reflect you as a mother. You try your hardest for your kids, everything you do is for them and I see it and so does everyone else, so never doubt yourself as a mum.

@sarahlucindagiddins I know it's hard to stay positive when it feels like everythings against you, but your kids and your family love you, and your kids will see you never give up even on your darkest days. Always here if you need a chat lovely, sometimes having a rant just helps clear your head xx

@beffgoude, definitely talking to you has helped, I bottle it up most of the time. I like to come across strong and I can take on anything but I have dark days. My kids keep me going on my worse days, I just want to feel normal again I guess, I have forgotten what it feels like not to be dizzy, thank you for listening to my troubles lol I don’t really have any friends to talk to, so thank you 😊

@sarahlucindagiddins glad i could cheer you up a bit, everyone has there down days its how we pick ourselves back up and keep going! Your a strong lady, you got this 💪❤