Well I did it...I'm scared and nervous but I finally made an appointment to see a counselor. I've…

Well I did it...I'm scared and nervous but I finally made an appointment to see a counselor. I've needed it my whole life and continued to be stubborn but I can't live like that anymore. I'm more scared for when my husband finally joins the mix because I feel this is all I have left for choices in our relationship to help with his anger and my impatience. Our kids need less kaos and more level heads around them. I don't expect miracles. I think I'm more looking for validity that my mind is normal and I'm not as crazy as I feel some days as well as being open to new perspectives in life. I hope for the best and fear the worst 🤔