So my husband and I ran into my dad's girlfriend in Wal-Mart. I said hi cause she didn't do anything to me. My dad was around the corning looking for something and I walked away cause my dad and I aren't on good terms. And as we were leaving my husband sees my father says oh aren't you going to say hi to your dad. I told him flat out no. And he said well that makes me look bad because everyone thinks that I turned you away from your family. I said not it's not to make you look bad but everyone is so worried about how i made him feel but no one thinks about the way he made me feel. I am stronger now then I ever was before. Yes in the year and a half I have lost contact with most all my family and friends. I am done making the effort to have people stay in my life. You want to leave I'll show you the door. I have anxiety and panic disorder so I need to keep an eye out for the people who are toxic in my life. I'm done being let down time and time again. The only people I need to worry about is my daughter, my husband and myself.
@lifewithlynniejade88 truthfully anything that was prescribed to me never helped only made matters worse. I'm not big into medication anyway like i won t take Advil or anything for a head ache. Before I was pregnant i would smoke marijuana when I felt an anxiety attack or panic attack. I'm in to the natural way usually. But now that I can't I just kinda cope with it as best I can. I'm doing pretty well with it now but it's still hard and I do have attacks here and there but I just have to try to trick my mind and remind myself to breath and to stay calm and everything will be good. Usually my husband can help calm me down but it's hard when he isn't there because he's working or I'm at work or something.