Kinda ridiculous that I post about being scared my boyfriend's older (possibly autistic) daughter is going to seriously hurt our 1 year old one day and everyone that commented tells me I just need to do my research. I have done research on autism and how to handle autistic kids. A ton actually, probably more than either of her biological parents. She has kicked and pushed my kid many times for her just being near her, she almost pushed her off our bed that is about 3 feet high when my daughter was 6 months old. I have every right to be afraid. I don't leave them alone together when I have her. But I cannot keep watch constantly. My boyfriend works from 10 am til 11 pm and we are about to live together full time. I have to use the bathroom and cook at some points during the day and my daughter just started walking so I can't just keep her in one place. She wants to play with her older sister, and I'm not going to force her to stay away from her. That would just be damaging to them both I believe. But I won't stop being anxious and afraid just because others say autistic kids are extremely loving, because that is not my experience.