Okay I have to bitch right now. So with me being off due to having the baby money was tight. So my husband decides to go back to work at a strip club, doing security. Which is where he worked when we got together, and it wasn't an issue at all. But then he had never cheated on me. Or so I thought. And I didn't find out until after he quit due to me being pregnant with my daughter who is now 3.i mean he hasn't done anything wrong in over a year, or at least not gotten caught.. Anyway, I am so insecure right now. I feel like I'm such a horrible person and I'm not attractive. And I just feel like I'm not good enough. I've had 4 kids now, I will never have a body like a stripper, or dancer, whatever. He honestly makes me feel like I'm going insane like im a fucking nutcase for being bitchy with him for ignoring my calls. He does security there, that does not mean stand around and watch them!! I used to model for Christ sake, i shouldn't feel this way. And I have never been jealous over anyone ever. I never got jealous I only got even. And now I'm broken. I've never felt so low in my life. I just want to give up. 💔💔💔