Alright, well I will start with I have anxiety and depression. No I don't see a doctor about it and no I take no medication. Anyway I am pregnant a 3 time in my fiances parents house. I lost my first 2 babies here. His parents love chemicals. They have really bad roaches. They never told us they had them when we moved in. We came all the way from Missouri. Its been a year and things are worse. I am about 10 weeks pregnant and me and my fiance want to go back to Missouri. We have a home there and land. My fiances parents insist too strongly that we stay. I have 4 cats and 2 dogs. They have renamed MY animals! They tell me what I can and can not do with them. The othwr day I scruffed my own cat because she was fighting. BTW these are indoor cats they made me put outside because they have 50 cats inside. Didnt know it was like this when we moved in. They have about 10 or so dogs and puppies on the way inside and there is poop and pee everywhere. Its pure nasty. They want me to have a baby here. Anyway they made my fiance lose his job he had. They refused to take him even though he pays gas. We were both jobless. I find interacting with people difficult. I just got a job in fast food and its extremely stressful. He is on the hunt for another job. BTW I have to walk to my job. My first 2 pregnancies were high risk. I am considered high risk now for all pregnancies. Anyway my fiance got into a fight with his parents and I tried to stop it. It started with his mom saying I was a pig and ate all the food. These people buy food and let it rot. When I had WIC they used ALL of my food. When I got my cheese they took it upstairs and I never got to eat any! Anyway I ate one piece of celery and all hell broke loose! I have been going without breakfast and lunch because if I eat anything they will yell at me. When I look in the refrigerator I have a panic attack and cry because I am hungry and if I eat something I will get yelled at and told I am a selfish pig. They also tell me I am below them because of my religion. Well, during the fight the other day my fiance told them they will never see their grandchildren ever. His dad threw a pan of dirty water in my face! With my second baby while things were ok they kept asking to let his dad sign the birth certificate. I obviously said NO. Just the way they talk and act if the baby lives I think they are going to try to take it. We need the money to get to missouri and my car needs fixed. I think they are cutting my tires. I keep putting tires on it and the next day they are flat. His dad stole our car battery and recycled it and kept the money. They charge us to stay here and they have the bills in my name because they cant have them in theirs. I am scared they will ruin my credit. I know his mom has my SSN. When we leave I am shutting off services. They wont let me even see my bill. We are supposed to pay it but they dont let us see it. We forced them too this month. They had been telling us its 500. Come to find out its 240! They go out to eat and bring snacks and sodas home and we have nothing to eat. They wont allow us to get food stamps and the job I have will bearly cover the bills. Since my fiance told them they will never see the baby they refuse to take me to the medicaid office and the doctor. They figure I guess since they wont see the baby they should let it die. I hate them. When I leave I will be calling code enforcment and animal control. Their house will be condemned because they will have no electricity when I leave and they will have their animals taken. Honestly they abused the wrong people. When we get back home to missouri I think everything will be so much better the baby might survive. I am trying to get a ride to the medicaid office. Its too far to walk. I lost most of my friends. I am having a really hard time. I am doing the best I can.