Trigger. Lost baby

Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?

Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,

his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...

who else had lost interest in having sex with your partner??? I am 21 weeks and 3 days.. and I don't like having sex.. I feel bad for him.. but I'm just not in the mood.. we have sex once or twice every two weeks or more.. I feel bad.. but I can't help it.. what helps is that right now he works at night so when he gets here in the morning he plays with the kids then he goes to sleep..

My boyfriend thinks I should hire someone he can have sex with for 6 weeks after I have my son. I don't know whether to snap on him or what?

Let's talk about SEX! So I'm 16 weeks and my desire has not come back yet. My hubby is being so patient with me but I know how he really is. I'm sure it's killing him. I just don't have the desire to do it. Any advice?