Why do we do this to ourselves? I don't know how anybody does it more than once because I am a…

Why do we do this to ourselves? I don't know how anybody does it more than once because I am a MONSTER 👹 I feel so angry and full of hate and resentment today, it's terrible. I just can't stop it all. I'm mad at my kids who can't take care of things, I'm mad at my husband for his lack of help on EVERYTHING, I'm mad because I'm sick all the time and my house is disgusting and falling apart, I'm just mad😡 I am glad though, that I'm alone from now until 2pm cuz I can barely stand myself today. Lord help me I'm going crazy 😣