Okay I don't want any judgment please.. My 5 month old just had a trach put in so he can breathe. We are working on getting him back to eating again. He got it put in on the 28th and I have been here for 9-10 days with him. Unless they're checking on him from his stats, or doing vitals (or any of the million other drs that come in) he's just in here with me and I am not getting good sleep as they are in here every few hours all night, plus I pump and sometimes I have to get him back to sleep. I would like to go home soon just in the evening and then come back late noon the next day so I can catch up on sleep. But I feel terrible leaving him. But we don't know how long he will be here either. Weeks at the soonest.. But what if he's crying and nobody is in here. Or they wake him up and leave and he's crying.. What would you guys do? I don't know how I feel about leaving just to get good sleep for just one night with him here not knowing if he's sleeping or crying.. But I feel like eventually for my sanity I need a break and some sleep. I just feel selfish and guilty..