Along with so many other awareness in the month of September. One of them is NICU awareness. Being a nicu mommy has so many things that are so emotional. Freaking out if your baby will make it, getting cheated out on labor , your water breaking in the middle of the mall, or being prepared amd having that hospital bag with you. What scared me the most was getting steroid shots and wondering if they are helping my baby so he can come into this world a survive! At 32 weeks and 3 days My baby boy was born 3 pounds 1 ounce. Didn't get to hold him like normal births. One picture and one touch of his tiny hand. Crying bc he didn't cry at first. That first little cry he made made my heart burst with emotions. Joy and scared to death washed over me. Our journey has just started before our journey of being parents can start. I Didn't get to see him for 5 days after giving birth. Darren showed me pictures and everyone said he looks like me, but I was crying because I didnt know what my own baby looked like. Just for the doctor to come in and tell me he has a heart murmur, double hernia, a VSD, and a PDA. The journey of being nicu parents are tough and hard on relationships. But in the end it was all worth it because 2 years later he is amazing and surprises us everyday.