I'm so pissed off right now. I ask a friend if she got her kid taking away and now I'm the bad guy…

I'm so pissed off right now. I ask a friend if she got her kid taking away and now I'm the bad guy for caring. Than my husband tells me I'm being negative cuz he said what if the roles were reversed and our friend called us asking wtf did you lose your kids. My answer was they only reason she would be asking to see if me and my husband spill up so she can have him and cuz she thought it was all my fault that we lost them. I'm sorry but I do my fucking best that I can to keep everything rolling smoothly here at home so all he has to do is drive a truck. Oh and one top of it I'm 4 days late. I can't do anything right anymore. I feel like I just need to stop trying so hard with my husband. We had a long talk when I was on the truck with him to the point where he said if I don't change we are getting a divorce. So as soon as I got home I've changed. I'm working really hard not to yell so much. I don't no what else to do like really. I'm so tired of always doing something wrong but yet I'm here everyday making sure our kids eat and bath and are happy and go to school. I feel like giving up but than he will say that's all your good at is giving up and running. But I'm hurt all I want to do is cry. I have know on to talk to. If I try and talk to him about it he says get over it. Just like bring in another woman into our marriage. I'm bisexual and he thinks that bringing another woman into our marriage is a good idea cuz I won't be so lonely and I have more help around the house. Sorry for such a long rant but I can't keep it in anymore. I feel like I'm not good enough for him or our kids. Oh god if I said anything to him about how I really feel I would never hear the end of it.