✨rant warning✨

The only thing in this world that makes me happy is my daughter. When she smiles at me nothing but warmth and love fills my heart, everytime she reaches a new milestone I get so excited. Like as I am typing this she is rocking on her hands and knees and she is so excited about it.

But I'm at the same time feeling like I am robbing her because I am trying to not cry because I'm hiding in my room while my suppose love of my life and I got into an argument and he decided to call me multiple degrading names while our adorable baby girl is sitting there listening, and she has no idea what's going on I think on to the future and hope to God that she doesn't find someone who calls her degrading names anytime something doesn't go their way.

I thought when I found my soulmate and had kids that it would be my perfect story book ending, but now I'm questioning if I have made a mistake or not. I feel like my life is going down hill and I have no idea how to stop it.

I want my daughter to see what a loving relationship is like and grow up with both of her parents but I am giving her the opposite, I don't know what to do anymore.