-Just needed to write/vent this out-
I cant stand the fear in my babies eyes of not being able to breath while hes vomitting. The pain, confusion, & scare gets my aniexty through the roof. As I sit there trying to keep calm telling him it okay, & so that my emotion of panic isn't felt by him. But after, behind that closed door. I just break down & cry. Wondering how this just developed in 2 short week with no other signs or symptoms prior to.
Reflux is no joke, & I just pray each night by baby will not being feeling this way for long. & that the switch of formula & being on liquid zantac makes a change for him, and that this is only temporary.
My 5 year old brother just got circumcised due to all the infections he kept on getting & seeing him in so much pain not being able to walk makes me glad I got my son circumcised as a newborn & planning on doing the same with my second baby.
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,
his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...
I'm being induced. Baby has no heartbeat. I am numb and just want to die.
@itsamemario, you deleted your post before I could hit send but this is my comment: I don’t know if this answers your question but this is my answer.
My son is 7 and he knows race and color. Why? Because he himself comes from a family that is multi racial and because he has already experienced racism. I also believe as his mother it’s my job to teach him color and the cold hard truth about society. He knows what’s going on in this world. I’d be hurting him if I allowed him to blindly walk out...

My son loves his baby carrier. I feel like it'll hurt him but just me being a paranoid momma
My son was born with acid reflux and was in nicu from it, it stunted his growth so badly during my pregnancy with him and then for 6 months after, i took him to a pediatric gi doctor and he got put on omeprazole and we had to change his formula so it would work with his medication and his dairy allergy, it cleared up by the time he was 9 months. My pediatrician thought he would out grow it and he never did, to this day it has gone away but comes back occasionally so he on zantac for those days and on omeprazole when he gets really sick just so hes not throwing up from reflux and a virus. And reflux also weakens the infants immune system my son got pneumonia in october last year from it and was hospitalized but they never treated him because of his medical issues. Its hard its a long and stressful journey but if you need anything im here to talk about.