Baby girl has horrible nightterrors and now doesn't like to sleep.. so this makes night #2 where…

It gets better girl trust me. Tomorrow is a new day to get through and you can do it. Youre a strong ass woman. You can do absolutely anything you put your mind to and you have a beautiful little girl to show that to. Much love

@jloop7509 that's the problem though. I'm tired of being strong. I'm physically sick and still being told I'm so strong because I hold everything together. Only, if I don't do this then everything will fall apart.

There comes a point where you need to stop worrying about your husband and the house work and focus on yourself and baby. I've hit breaking points where I just stop doing everything besides my son (when I had just my first) and my husband would figure it out and start doing shit (after a fight)

@ecahanes I'm not talking about things like house work. I stopped doing those when I first came home with my daughter.

I'm talking about the fact that my little sister has cancer and my family is leaning on me to help get them through this. The fact that we just lost my grandmother to cancer just a few weeks ago. I'm having to hold my dad and my grandfather up through this as well. The fact that my dad's side of the family named me head of the estate for the entire family. So I'm having to deal with all the lawyers and everything that deals with my grandmother's death. The fact that my little brother who's in the Navy and just got married this past December, is finalizing his divorce because the woman decided to cheat on him because he was sent off to sea. So of course he's leaning on me for support. My other grandmother is slowly losing her mind due to dementia and Alzheimer's. So of course that means my other grandfather is leaning on me for support in helping take care of her. My husband who has an okay job, now works 3 hours away from home. So that means I have to make sure he gets enough sleep he gets enough food to eat and he is okay driving back and forth three hours one way to get to work do a almost 12 hour shift and then come 3 hours back home without crashing the car or him falling asleep behind the wheel. All of this and the fact that my husband is in the military and they are saying there's a chance he might get shipped to Spain in the next few months. Oh and if that does happen he'll be gone for at least 9 months. And I am stuck here having to do all the paperwork necessary for my child to have insurance and get medical care, I am also trying to find out how to get me insurance so I can get medical care if I need it. Plus setting up all the new bank accounts because my husband and I never did any of this when we first got married because we had just found out we were going to have a baby and we're more focused on that. Also I'm trying to find a place for us to live that we can actually afford out there by his new job so that way he's not spending $40 something dollars on gas every day. All of this going on as well as the fact that I have yet to be able to get a job... and even if I did get a job I don't know who's going to take care of my daughter because we don't have the money for daycare. So we are running on very limited funds and it is getting hard to even pay the bills much less think about the fact that I still need to go grocery shopping for actual food.

@kaytibug2009 damn I'm so sorry. This is probably dumb to say as I've never been in your situation or even close but take the time out of the day to ground yourself. Meditation, yoga whatever you want to call it. But sit or stand somewhere close your eyes and say a mantra or chant or just hum and center yourself. Much much love to you