Today jr came up to me in our walk and said, "here mama" and handed me a flower. He really is the sweetest little boy in…

Today jr came up to me in our walk and said, "here mama" and handed me a flower. He really is the sweetest little boy in the world. He never cries, he's mature for 2 and does things like rubs my arm when I'm sick 😍 I just feel horrible for not being able to be the mother I could be and was if/when I wasn't pregnant. When I was pregnant with jr I was like this as well and my doctor thinks that my body just doesn't adapt to the extreme hormone changes very well (I have always had horrible pms and have responded terribly to birth control). I am physically so ill some days, I can't get up off of the couch because I am so dizzy and nauseous and just exhausted. I used to refuse to go on medicine, but I feel like it's time. I can't be like this for my sweet baby anymore. He deserves more from me. 😢