@kelleycrew7362, I'm going tomorrow morning to go to a place to see a counselor about helping me out. I see my OB soon as well so hopefully he'll know what to do. Taking care of myself is something I'll need to focus more on because most days I don't and it's just all about my son. I'll also have to take into consideration about waking up a little earlier to be able to relax and meditate

So I am currently over coming the same issue. I actually have a therapist and a behavioral health worker that comes to my house but honestly if you don't want to go and seek outside professional help (which I highly recommend) there are things that you can do for yourself. Self-care is so important make sure every day you brush your hair, wash your face, try putting some make up on and actually makes you feel a little bit better. Start the day off with stretching maybe wake up a bit earlier to have that time yourself read, pray, listen to music it really is a great way to start. Try going for a walk (we both live in AZ so that's not always a thing to do) if you can't just sit outside. Find a hobby. I'm here if you need to talk

@ceasethebaby, you're not alone.. you're never alone. Believe that and you will be fine trust me. You got this mama... be the mother that you have ALWAYS dreamed to be... you will never give up ... I believe in you ... yes I am a stranger but I won't let you feel down about yourself... I won't let that happen. You are an amazing person and you're a mother. Embrace it. It's the GREATEST feeling when you see your little one smiles at you showing you how much they love you and who you are and how strong you are to them. Your child admires you.

@ceasethebaby, I understand I have been doing it all on my own as well... and yes being home looking at 4 walls all the time can be challenging .. if you have the stroller or carrier go for walks with little one.. step outside for fresh air.. find something to take up your time when baby is asleep .. continue to keep yourself busy mama. Though my daughter was born beginning of winter I actually understand how you are feeling... however, I forced myself to fight those feelings at one point it did take control of me because I was actually bottling everything inside and I blew up me said things that I didn't mean. Honestly that was the only thing that really broke me. Hearing those negative words coming out of my mouth broke me down and I felt the lowest and disgusted. I prayed and repented to God and I needed to forgive myself to move forward and ask my daughter to forgive me ... even though she was only a month old I felt her love towards me. I don't know if you are religious but for me praying to God was what healed me, especially at that moment. Remember you're blessed mama, you carried your child under your heart and your child is with you. There are a lot of women who cannot have that experience, so for us to be feeling this way is unfortunate but it happens and we can fight these feelings because in the end we are strong women and we fight for our family and we will continue to be strong for our child(ren) it always starts with us.

@tashyyyy, Thank you so much mama ☺️ I would join a mommy group but where I live there isn't any. I do my best everyday to push forward and get what needs to be done. There's just moment throughout the day where I feel nothing and empty. I also deal with anxiety and being alone makes it flare up all the time

What I have done was join a mommy baby classes to just get out and be around other mothers... I also spoke to someone about how I was feeling other then family... in the end you just need to have faith in yourself, you're doing an amazing job it does have challenges however you're built for these challenges. Just think about it... your little one chose YOU to be their mother. They love you unconditionally and that love will NEVER break. That love lasts and grows stronger every second, every day.. you're never alone majority of mothers have gone through it and did recover form PPD I have so has other mothers in this wonderful app. You're beautiful and you have an amazing heart that has been blessed to love someone else first now. Stay strong mama. Trust me you're a doing amazing... and you will get the hang of everything trust me