I am feeling terrible inside.. i cant stop crying now... today i was at my sister's and we were all…

I am feeling terrible inside.. i cant stop crying now... today i was at my sister's and we were all eating outside. I had to fo get something inside and i left my boy with the rest of the family and he was playing around use a chair to stand up and when i came back to talk to my sis he turned back to look toward me, he fell backward and hit his head on the pavement. Not a direct hit, he didnt really hurt him b8t i still got scared.. then later tonight, i was reading a book, my mom was with me in the room.. i didnt noticed she left the room and she left the boy on the and he fell.. 1metre fall. He got a bump on his head and he was sobbing and screaming so much i only could do the same.. i never felt so bad in my life.. and i know i wont be able to sleep the night. I feel i mixt of guilt and scary and i worry so much for him..

He is fine.. after an eternity of suffering (about 15min) he started playing again and being a pain to put to bed.. (no i didnt go to the doc yet cuz since his state is not critical i will be waiting all night so i rather have him confy in a bed at home than a creepy place.. i have the chance to have pediatric nurse at home (my sis) so he is still having the same check up he would be having waiting for the doc all night)