I think you are feeling a panic in a temporary moment. I KNOW you will get through this. If you will never forgive yourself for an abortion do you really want to live with that? Always wondering?

Take it one day at a time. I was married 11 years and had two children. I NEVER thought I'd be divorced and a single mom. But there I was divorced and raising two kids and starting over. I made it through tho. Now I'm remarried and have another baby and I do compare my husband to my ex and it's not fair. Like another lady said, all men aren't the same. Maybe this guy would love to have a family with you. He knows having sex could cause pregnancy and he still chose to do it. And if he leaves once he knows then you are still blessed with children! They'll always be a part of you... it's hard. But moms can do anything. Don't put yourself though a scary procedure and then live your life with regret and no closure. I can tell you don't want that. You are amazing for all that you've went through and if u survived that you'll survive this. Promise. ❤️

God wouldn't put you through anything you couldn't handle! I never wanted 2 different dad's either but God had other plans for me! Ultimately it's your decision and you will do what's best for you. Talk to your spouse and see where his head is. Not every guy is the same. He may be one of the good ones who stay, and help raise BOTH of your children!! Either way, you will grow to love your unborn child just like @deafmama16.. Good luck to you sweetie, I know it's not an easy decision to make!

@juliannap have you talk to your bf about this? Yes it's your body but what if he not that kind of guy who will abandoned you and his child? Not all men's are the same and let me tell you honey I was in the same situation you're in but different. I want more kids but not too soon. I was livid when I found out I was pregnant again 5 months after giving birth to my son and I felt the same way you're feeling now. We we're barely getting by with one kid and life. I thought of abortion but I'm against it so I thought of adoption but I'm against that too because I'm adopted. As the pregnancy goes on I slowly came to love this child inside of me and slap myself for my selfish thought even though it made sense to understand because of the struggle I'm going through I can't just give up on my new baby. The more I grew to love and accept this child the more I'm ready to make a sacrifice to provide for this child including my one year old. Life is hard but it's not the end of the world. If I can do it and any other Mother's in the similar situation as yours can do it than you can do it too. Don't live life in regrets and fears. Our children are the biggest blessing even if we don't see it now.

@kimberlyyyy_the-preemie-mom, having an abortion is the best thing for me to do right now as I only have 6 months with my current partner and I'm still in school... etc. BUT I will NEVER forgive myself for having an abortion. I will always live with the guilt. I also read really scary stories about abortions. Like people passing out, some people dying from sepsis infections... when I was so close to getting the abortion i read all of that stuff and completely freaked out. I even had my appointment booked for the abortion and I cancelled it. Plus it's complicated because I had a vacation booked and I'm leaving on Saturday. I didn't know I was pregnant by then and now if I make another appt I will NOT be able to go away because it's a serious procedure. I'm just stuck.

I also have a long distance relationship with my boyfriend. Everything is just really complicated for me right now 😔

It's a hard choice to make. Whatever you do, make sure it's best for you first. You need to be comfortable with the decision you make. Then focus on the children you have and see what would be best for them. I'm sure you're a strong woman and you'd make it through anything. No one can tell you what to do, but I hope you find strength and people to support you with whatever decision you make.