Since I can't really post about it anywhere else, I just recently found out I am actually pregnant…

Since I can't really post about it anywhere else, I just recently found out I am actually pregnant after all and that despite the irregular cycle, I must've conceived later in my "cycle." Hence all the negative tests initially when I was only testing so early after a missed period. It's so weird. I don't know how far along I actually am since this cycle was screwy but I'm also not too thrilled since my SO and I broke up about two weeks ago. He left me KNOWING I could be pregnant after we were trying and now he lives in another state pulling this "oh woe is me" crap regarding it. I haven't told anyone else locally about it because it's still so early, I'm high risk pregnant, and honestly I'm embarrassed. Like this guy just left me, and now I'm pregnant. I feel awful...