I'm praying for you. I suffered in silence w ppd so I'm glad you recognize it. You should definitely speak to your doctor. You aren't alone and this is temporary.

@mermaidmeshy, I'll try thank you. I just feel like this is an internal thing that I somehow have to overcome on my own. I don't know if that's my depression talking :( but I feel helpless and that no one can help me.

I've never felt that anxious, but what helped me with my daughter is taking it one step at a time. She's been fussy and I've been annoyed and she could somehow feel my energy and it made things worse. I calmed myself down and just cuddled her and let her know it's okay and it helped her. I hope that can help you ❤️

Talk to you doctor, seriously. They won't judge and will get you the help you need. If it's therapy, meds, or both. (I fall into the both category.)

I've had too many friends either attempt suicide, or know they were thinking about it. Don't let yourself get to that point.

Personally, I'm holding back a panic attack because I can't get my 7 weeker to calm the hell down. I'm not doing anything wrong, she's fed, clean, and not sick. She's just being fussy. But my anxiety is off the roof. It's not her, it's me, and I have to remember that.