Tonight I realized that my partner doesn't back me up. He talks behind my back.

I'm so sad.

If I don't have him, who do I have?

I have put my daughters a side to please his needs, to be with him because I love him.

Tonight I found out that he throws me under the bus. He makes me seem as I am the bad one.

Why? Why do I have to love you this much.

I want to do "us," and all he wants to do is his family. As long as he does good with his family, he doesn't care about me.

I am disappointed.

Tomorrow will be a long talk with him and his brother, as he isn't telling everyone the truth.

I want to kill my self, I do so much for this man, and now I find out he isn't here for me.

My partner and my friend at work.