Some days are harder than others... Since last night i have felt this tremendous emptiness. I hate having to go through so much while pregnant. I have to feel every part of this process without anything to help me through... My sons birthday is the 29 and my husband is taking him and the kids to a place where there are a bunch of activities, i cant imagine being there while he has his girlfriend there... Im going through so many emotions, i cant afford to do anything for him, ill just write him a letter explaining that i love him and that i hope he forgives me for not being there. I wish i was mentally strong enough to do it for my son, but im carrying another son that continues to go thru the pain their dad caused for being selfish. God give me strength🙏