Starting TWW. Anyone else?

I had a stillborn daughter at 38 weeks this passed Nov. This is my second month ttc. (Last month we only tried for like two weeks though). My last and only pregnancy, I got pregnant the first month of ttc so I hope it's quick this time again.

I took a pregnancy test a few days ago, and there was a REALLY faint line in the positive window.. like I had to really look.. is that a yes or..??

Two weeks ago I realized P had actually dated a woman that we see regularly back in 08 and never told me. I felt a little hurt but I let it go.

Two days ago, I stumble across a document while grabbing our sons ssc. Not only did they date, they got MARRIED. We've been together five years, known each other at least nine and not once did he tell me. If I wouldn't have found the certificate I STILL wouldn't know.

Took a preg test and it was NEGATIVE! Yay! 🎉🎈

How many of those posts do you see on here? Lol. I just have a positive OPK for the last week. That's one hell of an LH surge. Just to be sure I took a test and now I can rest a little easier. I may test again next week.

*I'm taking OPK to AVOID pregnancy without the use of birth control. Natural Family Planning. I had my Mirena removed 3 weeks ago and so far no period, so I'm just trying to get a sense of a legit cycle, the first in almost 3 year...

First pic is about a week ago. second pic is today. 0_o Took two tests and they were negative.