Long vent: I am beyond tired of family trying to force a positive relationship between me and my sibling.
Every time I've taken a step in the past to just be done with them, I get a call from my mother/father, and when I explain what happened, every. single. time I've been told to 'be the bigger person' and 'she'll mature and get better, family is important so try to make things good between.'
I have two kids now, and a husband. I don't have the time or mental capacity to put up with someone's constant bullshit anymore. I finally cut them out, haven't associated in weeks - and then there comes the phone call about how 'heartbreaking' it is, and when alls I have to say is 'it's not the end of my world, that's for sure' I get hastily hung up on.
I feel so dead inside; like, I hate feeling guilty because I know in my heart I don't have a reason to. But here I am feeling upset because I don't want my mom to be hurt. It sucks when one sibling can do no wrong in my parents eyes - except when they do, it's on me to make sure I smooth it over and act like it never happened. I'm sorry, but there is only so much I can put up with, and we passed that mark already 😞✌🏻