I'm not sure why I'm having guilt not being able to breastfeed my child i did for 3 weeks and fell in a dark dark hole where I never wanted to get up feed myself or take showers i talked with my dr. And she said its okay for formula I cried knowing I needed to stop. I started to get infections in my fingers i also have a brain injury that wheb if i dont get 6 hours of sleep I cant even otter out words and walk so waking up ever hour to 2 hours feeding and pumping i was scaring myself during the day not taking care of myself I'm worried but yet want to try the full blown breastfeed my second child when that day comes thinking I might have a better outcome ugh idk