So today, I decided to go and look at shelters. I wasn't looking to get a another cat anytime soon…

So today, I decided to go and look at shelters. I wasn't looking to get a another cat anytime soon but as soon as I saw him, my heart sunk in my chest. He looks so much like Donnie and I was telling myself no, you can't. You can't do that to him, it's not fair. After talking it over my little sister and friend, I was reminded that I'm not replacing Donnie at all. Hell, I wanted to get another kitten for Donnie since he loved playing and a kitten would've kept him on his feet. As I was holding him, I wanted to cry. He was so tiny and just reminds me of Donnie when he was this tiny.. I got him and since then, he's licked my ear and nibbled on it, he's been curled up on my chest, he lays on my shoulder and tucked under my neck. My heart feels so much joy and in this moment I know I need it. I just want to throw it out there, HE IS NOT REPLACING DONNIE WHAT SO EVER. Donnie will still always be my world and more. I plan on doing a shadow box for him, doing a picture collage of all of his pictures, getting a drawing/painting of him and getting a tattoo portrait of Donnie done once I have Emery. I just know being a fur mom was the best thing I decided to do and I deserve to heal in the ways I choose to heal in. My family has been supportive of my choice and that's all that matters to me.

Since I got him, Emery has been moving none stop and I haven't really felt her with all of the stress and depression I've been going through.. and as weird as it may seem, I think this Donnie in another cats body.. he's purring all the time, he wants to be held by me constantly. He curls up in a ball on my chest and by my neck.. this is always what Donnie would do... I can't help but think it's him still staying connected with me...

This little guy still doesn't have a name so if anyone can help me come up with something, I'd greatly appreciate it..