Sometimes I miss going out like I used to before becoming a mother. I miss getting ready and going out with my baby's dad (not my bf or anything) and just having his attention. Not that it's his attention in particular that I miss but just that I even had anyone's attention in the first place. The fact that he would ask me to go out in the first place because it meant something to me that he actually wanted to go out with me somewhere and spend time with me and be seen with me. But now it's changed. He doesn't ever ask me to hang out with him anymore or go anywhere. I don't thing I could bring myself to actually go out without my daughter , but I wish he would at least think about inviting our daughter and I somewhere we can all go to together. I need to go out too, i haven't gone out since I found out I was pregnant (5 weeks). And honestly I need to get out of the house just to experience life outside my home. I honestly don't really have friends because my dumb self left all the friends I did have for him. And now when I do go over to his place so he can see her on the weekend (he lives with his parents, so they get to see her too) he leaves to hang out with other people. He'd rather be with others than his daughter. It hurts to see his preference over her. And what really kills me is when his mother tells him "take xochilt with you " I feel awful when I hear that. He replies by saying "no she can't leave the baby ever " that's his excuse for never inviting me anywhere. I don't know if I'm even making sense. I just really wanted to get that off my mind 😢