I feel like I don't matter anymore bc I lost a baby. And I'm not pregnant at the moment.
To anyone. Just one of those days. I'm hoping this month is it but I'm sure it's not. Jest depressed.
Matter to who ? I'm sure that's not true whatever the case .

I will be 41 :/
Short Luteal Phase?
I've just started temping because I believe that the reason I haven't had a BFP yet, after 20 months, is because I believe I may have a Luteal Phase Defect.
Things I never thought I'd say...
Until I became a mom:
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,
his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...
If it ur man let me tell you , when I lost my baby he just sat there and told me it's gonna be ok don't worry, but he didn't feel the pain I felt. It's harder for a mother to lose a baby because we had that connection with them and the dads don't nor anyone else. Stay strong momma and let urself cry and grieve .