I've honestly been thinking hard about if I want any more kids. We plan to do like open adoption or something but was…

I've honestly been thinking hard about if I want any more kids. We plan to do like open adoption or something but was going to have another before that. Will I hated being pregnant and my birth was traumatizing. I know the chances of things going THAT WRONG are not likely but I'm debating if it's even worth it. Ik it's early to make that decision but I guess I'm just one of those people that want at least an idea of what I want and I just feel torn.