I feel like his attention is no longer on me, maybe he just kisses me out of pity... Maybe he just touches me to not see my sad face all day.... But how can I blame him, he sees what I see in the mirror. An ugly flabby body and a tired face. Ugh today has been a long day and it has me feeling some sort of way... I know my body will take time to heal but what hurts the most is that with all I've given him he could just look for another and not look back and I'd be here with my tired eyes and mushy body just wondering if I'm ever going to be good enough... I'm more than meets the eye but for now I'm weak and tired... I want to feel beautiful, I want to feel wanted.... I'm not just a mom I'm also a woman