How Can I Heal After Losing the Love of My Life?

my most cherished and meaningful tattoo, the latitude and longitude coordinates of where my boyfriend Mike and I met.

This past week has been the week from hell. I came home from running a couple errands to find Mike unconscious on the floor. I did cpr until the paramedics came, and after 13 minutes of compressions they were able to get a pulse. Unfortunately the damage had already been done. Mike was pronounced brain dead at 3:05pm today. He is an organ donor, so he is being kept on a ventilator until they have matches... lives he can help save, much like how he saved my life when we started dating over 6 months ago. 6 months doesn't seem like a long time, and in the grand scheme of things it's not... but in that amount of time he helped me learn what being in love really feels like; what a normal and healthy relationship is supposed to feel like. Before I met Mike nothing in my life made sense. I was raising a 4 month old infant by myself, in between jobs, sick to my stomach with loneliness and heartbreak. Then I met him and suddenly everything in my life that I could never seem to make sense of finally came together. Every hardship I had to go through led me down the road to meeting him, so suddenly the saying "everything happens for a reason" made total sense. He has been the father figure in Oakley's life since we've been together, called him his son and loved him the same way he loves his 3 blood children.

Sorry for clogging up everyone's feed. You ladies have been a consistent support network throughout my journey to motherhood and now beyond. I can honestly say I have no idea how I'm going to move forward and try to heal from this. I have never lost anyone close to me.. let alone someone that I really thought I'd be with for the rest of my time on this earth. If anyone has any advice... any insight in to how I can try and grieve about this without losing myself completely, I would so appreciate it. Thanks everyone for reading. I truly hope all of you have the blessing of being loved by someone like my Mike. Someone who makes your world feel like it's complete.