Hey ladies I'm new to the app my name is angel I'm 21 and I have a 2 month old daughter named nevaeh I'm a ftm and I really can't seem to shake this fear that if I leave her in her crib, basinett, or rock and play to sleep by her self that she's going to die.. A little back story about me I suffer from severe pcos and my doctor told me in April of 2015 that there was little to no chance that I'd get pregnant ever because the pcos is so bad and when I did get pregnant with her he told me it was a miracle! My whole pregnancy I lost 20 lbs I stayed so sick. I was due 3/22/17 and was supposed to be induced on 3/15/17 because my doctor was going our of town and I didn't want anyone else to deliver her. So at my last appointment on 3/8/17 everything was looking good but a few weeks before that it took them 30 minutes to find her heart beat and were finding decels. But they finally found her heart beat. Fast forward back to the 8th I had come down that night to stay at my moms to help her clean and set up for nevaeh well that night I wound up having bad contractions and I couldn't make it to the hospital I was supposed to deliver at so I get there they hook me up to the monitors for a few hours and they come in a little while later and tell me I was having irregular contractions but it concerned them that when I had big contractions that her heart rate was decelerating so they did a timed ultrasound and it was 30 minutes well the movements she was supposed to make she didn't make until the last 7 minutes of the ultrasound so the doc come in and gave me my options so I opted to go ahead and induce which made things so much worse her heart rate deceled with every contraction so they broke my water at 8:30 and by 10:30 I was asking for an epidural because of the possibility of a csection so around 12 they come in and start the pitocin and that blew the epidural out of the water it wasn't worth getting after the pitocin by 2:30 pm I was pushing and they couldn't get her fast enough by me pushing so they told me either we could use vaccum or the emergency c section so I opted to try the vacuum first once she was out at 2:33 pm the doctor said I'm lucky she even made it to 38 weeks because her placenta was so small and thin and her cord was poorly attached I had an undetected case of placenta previa well she was born at 38 weeks she was the size of a 36 week baby she weighed 4lbs 12 oz and was 18.5 inches long she was healthy as a horse and I was thankful for that! But ever since she was born I really don't want to put her down at night in a crib her rock and play or her basinette because I'm so afraid she's going to die am I the only one in this situation after almost losing her once?