I have a question, is it bad that after I have a couple drinks, I am more outgoing more than when Im…

I have a question, is it bad that after I have a couple drinks, I am more outgoing more than when Im sober? I don't think I have a drinking problem or anything. I just truly feel like when i have time be an adult (and my kid is being taken care of (( babysitter)) for just a couple of hours) I get to take part adulting and I go a little hard. Definitely nothing like I use to because I have the experience now but the fact I always result to my same ole ways is a little concerning to me because why, when I'm beyond that? It is just my son and I and I have a ton of support and they say I should never feel this way but yet I do I feel that my whole life should be now Maverick everything just so he won't worry about who is his biological father is. It is even more than that, I want to find myself but I am unsure how. #help #lost #dontwanttiscrewup #ihavenoideawhatiamdoing #singlemom #turelydonotwantanythingfromsoermdonor