So here I am suffering from ppd which is making me physically sick, and my SO isn't helping it, I feel like my life is a constant blur now, and I feel like he's not trying in this relationship "romance wise" to him it's all about sex, I can understand why he craves that type of attention all the time, ha 9 months is a long time, but that's not all I want in a relationship, plus what he doesn't understand is my body isn't fully done healing itself, and he makes me feel like a bad mom. Like when baby was born and not being able to see or hold my child till 5 hours later due to complications, I as a ftm kissed my baby on the mouth, and my SO looks at me and say "you can't kiss him on the mouth" 😶😮and I just can't help to feel that me and my depression is better off without him. I don't know how to save my relationship.... i don't even know if I want to at this point! Tired of the BS! Just wanna feel normal again and wanna feel like I'm more than an object... I shouldn't even be feeling this way... I guess I'm reaching out to you ladies for advice and thoughts on what I should do. Oh let's not forget, everything i do isn't right that's how he treats me, and here lately I've noticed him telling me to shut up about things involving my child and I don't deserve any of that... I guess I'm trying to say is he doesn't let me have a say in anything including my baby. And I'm fed up!