So bae and I have really struggled to get pregnant and now…

So bae and I have really struggled to get pregnant and now we have a 9m old and one on the way what a blessing after 2lost and being told we couldn't have kids then getting pregnant then being told we couldn't get pregnant again now pregnant so I told him Maybe we should get on birth control after this bby and wait a few years for another one he said bitch u crazy 😜 ummmmm so what are we going to do if we get pregnant aging he said wtf u mean take care of all our 20 kids lol 😂 I sure do want a big family but 20 is a lot and I would like alil break. Lol 😂 so even if I must go behind his back birth control it will be after our lil blessing arrives