It suck when your feeling so blue n cry to your older sister​ just to get some love but she shut me down more my own blood everyone say am fine it will pass yes went dr they know how bad am blue n when try get help own husband say i don't need it fine ok why do cry all day fake happy always grumpy n miss family that i lift behind n have bad dream kill myself what happened is sleep walk i did it without wake up see my kids again no one understand what full time mom go thou don't get no love or say wow thanks you or great mom nothing i feel like shity mom i wigth 205.8 so fat it sickness me look at myself