I haven't updated in a long time so here goes nothing:
I go every week to the doctor for ultrasounds and every other week I have blood work. Sometimes my appointments are like 3 hours away and I have to leave the house at like 5 in the morning because I'm too scared to go by myself so I always schedule the appointment for when my husband can come. I saw a hematologist a couple of weeks ago and they took 20 vials of blood, which is a half pint almost, for experiments and tests. My lungs aren't getting better because of the pressure the baby is putting on them but then they won't medically induce either. Also, I've developed horrible SPD and can hardly walk and that makes taking care of a 17 month old insanely hard, especially because I'm always by myself. I'm so depressed and would just really like to get this baby out of me. It's so hard to be bonded with her when I'm suffering so much. Everyone keeps saying just a few more weeks and that I'll forget all the bad when I see her face, but like their baby didn't almost kill them in the womb so just leave me alone. You don't know what I'm going through.