So after I had my son I had a rough time. Even though I had my mom and my husband for help. I had an…

So after I had my son I had a rough time. Even though I had my mom and my husband for help. I had an emergency C-section with my son. For the first month I was constantly crying at night, I didn't want to be without my son, but he would cry so much I wouldn't want to hold him. I would get pissed off if my mom or husband asked if I needed help, getting up, taking care of him, making bottles or even dishes. They wanted me to rest but I felt like even though I was in terrible pain that I had to do it. I cried so much and stayed up countless nights. I don't know what was going on or why. But I was always upset and mad. I wanted to do what I couldn't. While they worked inside and out I was mad because I couldn't get off the couch. Knowing that I have to go through a C-section this time too, it scares me. Because I don't want to go through that again. I probably won't have my mom out here. And on top of that my son will be running around. I just don't want to experience it ever again.