It's so hard to explain the heartbreak I feel every time I have to admit that I'm not breastfeeding. And whenever I try people say, "I didn't and my kids turned out fine!" It's not that I'm worried about my son... it's that when I was trying to breastfeed I loved it. When I found out I couldn't, and it was never gonna happen, I was devastated. And that still hasnt gone away.