I didn't see the babies last night in the nicu because I was so exhausted and my husband already knocked out on the…

I didn't see the babies last night in the nicu because I was so exhausted and my husband already knocked out on the hospital couch. I feel so guilty. Going to eat and then spend a few hours with them or until my body can't take it anymore. My stomach has gone down a lot. I had a lot of gas pains and they are super painful. I've been drinking fennel tea and lots of water to help. Best tip: never wait to use bathroom after c section!