Its sucks when you lose a person close to you because they cant understand you're mourning. I had my…

Its sucks when you lose a person close to you because they cant understand you're mourning. I had my baby at 27 weeks and she was born without a heart beat and fought for her life. My "best friend" tried for 15 months before she finally got pregnant. I was excited for her. I helped her with her announcement. But now shes mad because i cant help her with her baby shower because im emotionally dealing with the the events that happened a year ago leading to my early delivery and the following struggle. Many may not understand but just because my child is here doesnt mean i cant mourn the loss of the experience. I never showed. Never even felt a kick. I got a positive pregnancy test and had my baby a couple weeks later. Thats it. No excitement. no announcement. no nothing. So forgive me for not being in a good mental state at the moment.