I don't know really where I can talk where I don't know anyone in real life... But there is only one person here as opposed to so many more in any of my Facebook mom groups.
Anyway... I am dealing with depression. I know it. I have been fine for months and I was even fine all day... Then tonight when I was almost asleep I took a deep breath and my husband said, "Why are you huffing!? What did I do to make you mad!??" At that point I lost it. I started crying uncontrollably. I couldnt breathe. I wanted to curl up in a ball and not move. I started puking I was crying so hard. I started thinking super dark thoughts about wanting to die and I just don't feel okay. I haven't felt like this since I was in high school and living with my dad. My husband is so sweet and kind and I know he didn't mean to upset me.