In tears stressing on what to do this last 90 days have been the most chaotic to the point I'm lost…

In tears stressing on what to do this last 90 days have been the most chaotic to the point I'm lost and don't know what to do 😭😭 I'm scared to death and just wish i could go back 😫 I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place and just don't know what to do 😭😭😭😭😭 someone anyone help me I feel so trapped